hodgepodge

2006-08-13T03:55:00.000-07:00

POP QUIZ! POP QUIZ!!

2006-08-13T03:31:00.000-07:00

2006-08-04T21:58:00.002-07:00

2006-08-04T21:58:00.000-07:00

Sampung bagay na ikina-irita ko ngayong linggo

2006-07-29T22:38:00.000-07:00

1. Si Ms. Peru na naman ang Ms. Universe. Sila-sila na lang. Kung hindi si Ms. Peru, Venezuela. Kung hindi si Venezuela, si Mexico.
Kung hindi, si Ms. Cuba, Argentina, Puerto Rico. Hay! E di sana, Ms. South America na lang, di ba?
2. Lagi na lang mukha ni Alyssa Alano ang nakikita ko sa Channel 7. Kahit yata sa Imbestigador, siya ang topic.
3. Lagi namang si Zanjoe Marudo ang nakikita ko sa Channel 2.
4. Lagi namang Keys Me ang naririnig kong kinakanta ng kapatid ko. Nasusuka na ako.
5. Grabe ang exam sa NASC2. Huh, chicken pala, ha?
6. Ang sexy-sexy pa rin ni Eula Valdes. Bwisit siya. (inggit lang 'yan!)
7. SI Sandara daw ang cover ng Maxim. Ano naman sa tingin niya ang asset niya? Ribs niya?
8. Napunta din lang naman tayo sa ribs. Wala daw silang chicken breast sa KFC, sabi nung lalaki sa counter. Chicken ribs lang daw.
9. Nagpahula ako. Good news ng manghuhula, may isang seseryoso sa 'kin. Bad news, isa lang.
10. Mukha na daw akong (pangalan niya.). "Nagmomoda" ang mga kaibigan ko. Wala na daw akong oras sa kanila kasi puro daw kaiisip kay (pangalan niya) ang inaatupag ko. Hindi naman. Mga 3 hours lang sa isang araw, sa tantsa ko. Hindi na masama.

Tatlong Oras

2006-07-25T21:05:00.000-07:00

That night. Was so. Bittersweet.
An hour's enough. Two hours, great. Three hours, ineffable bliss.
It's as if the world revolved around us, yes, in those three hours.
I YEARN FOR MORE; however, I'm afraid that it'd be the first and last.
What if God says that is enough? Or too much? That those three hours is forever's worth?
At least He gave me three hours...of smiles, boisterous laughter, comforting and awkward silence.
(sigh) Tama na nga siguro yun.

Assuming Ka Kasi

2006-07-23T03:07:00.000-07:00

An affirmation of life's sweetness is our ability to dream and wander around the deep and wild forest of fantasies--what if I'm like this, or like that, or with this person. However, dreaming also makes us realize how bitter life can also be.

The problem with us is that we like to assume and play what-ifs--even at the cost of hurting ourselves. And now I'm already paying the price of doing so. And now the one that I'm yearning for all the while, the one that I feel what true and mature admiration with (yes, the one that went beyond teenybopper admiration), is indeed in love (or should I say, in the verge of being in love with someone else--someone I can never compete with. (Like, I don't have boobs--and all of those which comes with being a woman)

But at least now that THAT person is geared towards loving, not me, but someone else, I can now end up all these yearning and assuming and what if-ing and self-hurting. And start loving myself anew.

I can now sleep more than 6 hours a night. I can therefore lessen my dependence on my St. Ives Eye and Face Stress Gel, loose powder (mahal ang concealer, dear) and RTD coffee.

I can spend more time reading and listening to my kind of music: my ways of spending my "me time"

I can focus more on studying (did you know that I flanked 3 quizzes all at the same day last week?), and I may now be confident enough that nothing--not a speck of thinking about anything nor anyone--will ever disturb me.

I can spend more time on thinking where I have misplaced my wallet/organizer, which its loss I'm very clueless of this morning (--and yes, I was able to find it just this morning).

I can spend more time being happy--because that's what I need to feel.

I can now spend more time collecting simple things that can prove that yes, life can be too harsh, yet we should still hold on to a fiber of hope--hope of finding something good and sweet in it. Para que pang tinawag na bittersweet ang buhay?

I can now therefore move on with my life and stop living with loving someone on my own...and stop wasting my time with such nonsense.